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i'm really worried about dad. he has been stressed out for years, throwing temper tantrums several times a day, and we grow accustomed to it, it's just in his nature. he never yells at us, or about us, all his frustrations stem from work, he's troubled. he dismisses any suggestion to go to the doctor, and he got so worked up today that he started having chest pains. when i asked him if he was okay he had this really scary look in his eyes. his dad died of a heart attack when he young. i was going to go out but now i don't really know if i want to.

forever waiting in the metaphysical cafe

Forever waiting in the metaphysical café
I have planned a blind date with fate.
Slurping my perennial latte,
Repeating the sounding joy:
He’s late.
A boy,
Without an age ,
walks through the archway.
With pen in hand, I reach out to
Engage.
A crossword puzzle,
In the paper:
eternally Sunday.
Equally puzzled,
his eyes perpetually say
I am not the one you have been looking for today.
Without words of consolation they parochially walk away.
Forever patient in the metaphysical café,
I sit cross legged in meditation and wait.
There is no need to fold my hands and pray;
I wait for my proverbial sweetheart or some work of art
And for this never-ending story to pass away.


(first draft)

bewitched

i've been playing piano a lot lately. practicing everyday. slowly mastering this old jazz standard song called, "bewitched". it was in hannah and her sisters which was one of my favorite movies. also working on "siempre en mi corazon".

bewitched: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=96UbVbNqRSE
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Uz8qRsqoBLc

siempre en mi corazon: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zRU6rTKhUvs
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aGBYQAycNNI

mon petite chou

morla made corn beef and cabbage soup yesterday. i was thinking, cabbage may be the most prevalent vegetable in my ancestry. Half irish, half hungarian. A few months ago my (hungarian) grandma taught us how to make stuffed cabbage. Pretty simple. any way, i was doing some research and some site said cabbage is good for skin. then i found this adorable website:

http://www.cheriestihler.com/cc1.html

(i'm reading the trivia page and the largest cabbage ever recorded weighs more than i do. oh shit. that's some serious slaw.)

and theeeeeeeeen, i looked up a face mask recipe with cabbage in it. i grated cabbage, squeezed the juice out, added a little bit of lemon juice and it's on my face right now.

tah dah

mamala

happy motherfucker's day to all my motherfuckers.

zine scene

i want to start a zine called: cuntfucky fried bitchin